The age-old question rears its head again - whether tis nobler to take a menial job while working on artistic pursuits, and living in a great town that inspires you, or to live in a lamer town, working on semi-artistic pursuits while still doing the more artistic stuff in your spare time.

I keep thinking that if I leave Iowa City I'm selling out somehow, that I'm not the beatnik I need to be to really be a musician. But am I really going to be able to not kill the stupid high school/college kids I work with at my menial job, and still have time to do the things I love? Something's gotta give.

On the other hand the idea of being a teacher scares me because I think I'll go all soft and corny ( I know, I already AM soft and corny), and I'll never have the balls I have now, to live on a shoestring and chase my dreams, with nothing to lose.