Today, I am a woman

I'm not sure exactly what it was, but this weekend gave me the suspiscion that I am now an adult.

Perhaps it was because, as the weekend of my students' year end recitals, it was also my first public appearance as "Ms. Kim, the piano teacher." Though my students regularly mouth off to me, and address me as a fellow 3rd grader, when the pressure of the recital was on, they looked to me to be in charge. Little Ellie stopped in the middle of her piece, after a wrong note. She looked over at me and mouthed, "What do I do now?" I wanted to mouth back, "Why are you looking at ME??" But the correct response, of course, was "Keep going." Then, after a second mishap: "Start it again."

It didn't really hit me, though, until Sunday morning. My church is under construction, and the parking lot was a maze of cones and orange fences. I finally gave up driving through the mess, and decided to try to walk to the temporary entrance (wherever it was), but I was tired and stressed out from the difficult weekend, and soon got disoriented in the massive church complex. It was raining and disgusting out, and I could feel my face forming a great big pout. I wanted to go home and get back in bed. This was stupid! And no fair! Stupid stupid rain! Dumb old construction! Suddenly, outloud, I heard myself say "Oh, grow up" and in no time I had found the correct entrance.

Adulthood comes gradually, and it's sneaky as can be, but eventually it catches up with you!